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A pure perception in diversity is needed in order to show true love.
For if we cannot see or try and understand the unique beauty of another's existence how can we expect to see our own. And if we cannot take the time to see our own how can we appreciate each other for our similarities and differences? Every one has a purpose. Everyone has gifts. Everyone has flaws. It's the moment when we decide to use or develop these characteristic that we might see life in a bigger light and see people In a different manner. For then we realize the power we have to speak and encourage joy, love, peace, kindness, forgiveness and patience into others lives through our struggles and accomplishments. Not being ashamed of the excitement you have in growing or learning. For lets take advantage of having the freedom to pass on raw beautiful information and love, heart to heart with no fear of rejection but instead gaining a new perspective.

You guys dont know everything girls do for you.You guys dont know that we girls find everything related for you.Lyrics quotes movies everything. You guys dont know that we girls stay up late night just to wait for you get online and talk for a while. You guys dont know how we girls feel when you say you've got to go and the goodbye part begins Y ou guys have no idea of how many fights we could had with our parents or friends just to go out or talk to you. You guys dont know that we girls can talk about you with anyone and not get bored. You guys dont know that we girls can find lovely and cute every single datail about you. You guys dont know that we girls feel when we see you smilling __ even if we are not the reason. You guys dont know that we girls try to hide our feelings with you. You guys have no idea of how girls would give up or leave behind for you. You guys wont ever know how we girls could have passed through tears and pain just to be okay with you. You guys wont understand why we girls are so complicated well its because of you guys. You guys have no idea of how much we girls love you. Well we girls feel identified with all this__ its because of you ____ GUYS...

You’re happy while I’m taking my time pretending you don’t exist, pretending you don’t exist, pretending you don’t exist.First step is to disable you from showing up on my mind, Fb newsfeed. I will banish myself into a state of self-isolation in an effort to forget, forget, forget___ i don't know why im so emotional today no need to cry with that stupid human why you back and ruined up my life again i know you can't find me here.Today i realized that you are not the only one who wrecked me, distroyed me. It was me because i have the only power to do that to myself.

I loved the way you made me smile, you made joke you make a story just to show how special I am for you. When I met you I wasn't planning to fall in love you know. The attraction was electric and unexpected. Our timing was lousy, but the connection was impossible to ignore. You came into my world and turned it upside down. Our love is deepest secret nobody knows only you and me. I was happy enough to keep that secret while we tried to sort out the incredible mess that we had got ourselves into. I was also happy to wait until circumstances were better. What are real you behind the mask of kindness you showed is you just hurt me. Many friends told you are like that like this but I still believe you, and now  don't ask me if I am over tears are not a bad sign, you know!They relieve some of the stress of sadness.You said now that it's my fault huh!How bad to read that words you know I cried many times because of you and yeah, my pain is held inside, a shield against because of our closeness before we're distant I want to kill you it's true for hurting me. I often say your name, You know the pain I feel right now its unimaginable indescribable intense  for how stupid am I. I am moving forward and you again ugh, continue this one laterunfinish ___ on work hehe

I dunno how to start right now still too much headache want to shot out my head ugh work and too much stress out here lost end 1 work yesterday!! While my brain are so empty anyway now i will put what happen in just few hours before i open my cute blog, last saturday i was out with my friends i was little get bored hang out with them, Aww it means i feel im getting matured this way uhmm proud of it. Here you go i will start i want to pee that time its because almost 3 glass of margareta hit my tummy toink!Little bit crazy i am clumsy it was dark so i open my mobile umm i see i have message from my friend westside then i light up my way with my mobile and do  pee out in ladies room and boom man bump me i fall my mobile and all was scatter on floor, he help me fix it glad it still function he said he knows me so i just smile and i get his number and i give mine too just in case if my mobile have any problem yeah it's beause if it has problem i will tell him to pay my mobile or do change, so yesterday he text me if it has problem because he will go home as usual i dont reply him then he said reply me please i will go home in Piura,PERU so i still ignore its because nothing happen on my mobile. This morning he text me he said you have fb i am honest i know you are kind wholsome and i want to be friend if you get bored i will give you my whole time, tru mms he send choir group in church his a mormon God fearing i feel that his kind too and a good person so i do reply and say__ hey this is my acct just seconds he send request, i look up his acct his cool not arrogant a nice man he play in an orchestra the man with a blue shirt... For you my new friend nice talking to you ahhm what else your two young brothers look so naughty i know u will smile time i will publish this hahaha now i get empty ugh i need to refresh my brain want to say more about you in here like you are cool and your ex gf was also fool for leaving you and you are performing in La Casa dela Abuella and in Las Lomas i guess its a nice place in peru wish you will comeback here because were good friends now that accident in my mobile was gateway in our friendship, i will continue this later i feel sleepy right now 

I’m going to share my short-term goals, to make sure that I make them a reality and to get an even higher inspiration..I love learning and I love dedicating my free time to learn something new. Currently, I’m really enjoying learning which is definitely one of the most promising technology-related topics there is. I’m intrigued and amazed by every single new line that I read about it and I’m probably going to keep up with the learning for quite some time. So, today, it got me wondered, why not pledge to learn something new every single day? And I really mean every. single. day. No breaks, no nothing. I love learning and I have developed a habit of learning something new at least once a week. So, why don’t I kick it up a notch? Starting from today (well, actually, I have been learning something new for a few days in a row now),I’ve decided to learn something new every single day out of the topics I’m interested in. I want to build a healthy habit that could help me throughout my career and this is the way of accomplishing it I’m completely comfortable with. I should know much more than I know currently in a wide variety of topics.
I should emphasize that my goal is not to become an expert in a specific topic. My goal is to have a reasonable amount of knowledge in every single topic I can think of. My goal is to stop asking myself how something works. My goal is to start learning how something works on a daily basis.
Who knows, if I work really hard, I might even be able to get a good work in some company or what so ever a bigtime job that I deeply admire.
 

Interesting Facts About Me

• I love making fun of people.
• But I hate getting made fun of.
  
• I am such a sweet person to my friends & also very annoying.
• I love going out!!!
• I’m obsessed with coffee and chocolates.
• I’m very body conscious. But never do anything about my weight.
• I love sweet, sour and salty food.
• I’m the type of person that never finishes what they have started.
• I tend to bring up the past too much and hurt people by doing so.
• I am extremely quiet when you first meet me, but once I’m warmed up I talk too much.
• My friends are my family. My family are my friends.
• I want to do many things, but I doubt I will ever achieve what i want.
• When I’m stressed I just closed my room and be alone & I’m all better.
• I want to travel the world but I’m scared of getting kidnapped and being forced in prostitution. (Because of the movie “Taken”)

Interesting Facts About Me part 2:

• What is your middle name? I don't have name & middle name
• What was favourites subjects at school? all about Science
• What is your favourite drink? Coffee and choco for sure
• What is your favourite song at the moment? YOLO by Adam Levine, Skyfall by Adelle
• What is your favourite food? Italian food
• What is the last thing you bought? A tamarind
• Favourite book of all time? Im gonna say all books
• Favourite colour? White, purple
• Do you have any pets? puppy!
• Favourite perfume? Versace, Gucci Guilty
• Favourite Holiday? HongKong Disneyland
• Are you married? No
• Do you speak any other language? I speak English and Italian
• How many siblings do you have? One sister and one brother
• What is your flowers/ Rose, Tulip
• Favourite restaurant? Anywhere
• When was the last time you cried? yesterday and today
• Favourite Social?  my blog
• Favourite Tv Show? Teenwolf, Super Natural!
• Mac or Pc? Pc
• What phone do you have? Sony Xperia L
• How tall are you? 5 ft 7
• Can you cook? bit

 I can’t forget the love I had for him.
He’s my wall of protection; no one knows my weakness but him.
I love him like a friend, I love him like a brother, and I’d even love him if he was an enemy.
People ask who I’m in love with I reply no one but its really __
If he doesn’t love you back then walk away. Remember the good times together before he knew.
With guys don’t play hard to get cos they are not sophisticated enough to know how to win.
I dislike my ex, and I secretly love my __.
I love someone who catches me when I fall, makes me smile when I’m sad, and the one who is already taken.
True friends breakup with their boyfriend just so you could date them. Fake friends take the offer when a real friend refuses to agree.
If people say follow your heart when its broken say “I can’t the path is split in half.”
So easy to say I love you to someone you don’t and easy to break there hearts. So hard to say I love to the one you do and can’t help but cry when they break yours.
If you’ve ever been in love then you know what it feels like to be heartbroken.
Guy’s say things that make no sense, make you hate them, make you think they’re weird, stupid, or foolish, but there are rare occasions where you know they are the ones you love.
Just like girls once you push them far enough boys walk away but unlike us they come back.
Don’t search for the second half of your heart let the one holding it find you.
If you like someone and you leave, do you wonder if they miss you while you’re gone?
Things happen and others don’t know. You pretend nothing is wrong, some fall for it and others don’t. You’re social but you are preferring to be left alone all the time.
I don’t know why they call it heartbreak, it feels like every part of __ is broken-
Love gives someone the power to break you, When life offers you a dream so far beyond of your expectations, it is not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. I’m in a little bit of a romantic mess really..I was with a guy,__ but my ____ told me he loved me too, and that he had to leave because it was killing him watching me with someone else. So I left the other guy for my ______. But my ____________ and decided to let me go..He deserves better.. So there we have it. I’ve stuffed around a few peoples lives.. I now have no ____f, and no ____f. So I am being punished,? I suppose.  But at least in the end I got my come upping. I cry myself to sleep, and the only thing that stops the tears is imagining him with me.. Pathetic, yes. But that’s just how life is.Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak; Sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go!

So, this is my second time writing a blog. I just talk 2 of my best friends again since 2 months and I was talking to them about what I should do with my life. Right now I am having time off but I can't help but think about it. So one of my friends Julia told me that I should write a blog since I have time, write about the things I've seen, my life, my thoughts, and my hobbies. I was like, "Why not?" If I have too much time on my hands I might go crazy on alcohol. I asked them, "So how do I start this? What do I talk about?" and my sis Emily told me to write it as a diary, like I am writing it for my future self because if I think too much about what other people think about my blog it will change the way I write. I used to have a diary when I was a kid and it was a super thick book because I would write about what I did, what I thought and what I wanted to do every single day for a year or so. Unfortunately, I lost it, most likely a creepy ex-boyfriend jeff stole it haha, maybe to figure out why I dumped him. (I'm half American by the way). This, I think, is the most stressful time I have had in my life. In elementary you're happy, life is easy everything taken care of and you get to color and have recess, snack breaks, girl scouts, sleepovers, life was a cake. Middle school got a little tougher but was still bearable. HIGH SCHOOL, when the alcohol starts, this was fun but you know you just want to get over with it listen to your mother's rules anymore and where you can just go wild on your own and all that freedom you get? Its not as sweet as when you have rules to defy! The risks you take jumping out your window to go to a party in high school are over, you can just call a friend, have them pick you up and have a drink at a bar, lately I feel a lack of need for alcohol since my mom doesn't really care anymore, which is good. I just think, "WHY DIDN'T SHE JUST LET ME DO WHAT I WANTED WHEN I WAS YOUNGER!"Well I ended up doing it anyways secretly. Oh I went crazy when I was a teenager, come on I was in the Philippines you can do WHATEVER you want at any age really. Because its like What do I do with my life now?  I can choose what continent I want to live in, I can choose the city I live in, I can choose the path I want to take, so many choices, so where do I start? THE REAL REASON why I am staying in the Philippines right now just simple but secret sooner i will follow my destiny Sooooo anyways, MY POINT for starting this blog is that it's near August 28 yet another chapter of my life,  I have so much to talk about but ill leave it to another time. I'll talk about my past a lot. The blog will also tell stories of my travels around the world, all over the USA,  (I know the best spots in case anyone wants to have a personalized concierge ), places in Europe in Middle that I have traveled, thoughts that I may have on a daily basis AND I'll add videos that I make (one of my hobbies). I usually never finish anything I start so I hope this lasts! Keep a track of my progress in life.